The Six Little Words That Changed My Life....

The six little words that changed my life....

I want to be like that.

As Emerson put it, "Make a decision and the Universe conspires to make it happen."
It was one of THOSE moments.... I knew something big had happened, but I didn't know what.

It was one of those moments when it feels like there's no time or space, just the present, just that one moment, and you know something has shifted, but there's nothing to do but go on with your day, with your life, and let it unfold.
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So that's what I did.

"Make a decision, and the Universe conspires to make it happen.  -Ralph Waldo Emerson

It was a June afternoon in my kitchen. I was alone in my house. I had just put away groceries and was leaning on the dining room table scrolling on social media.

I happened upon an article and read it. The article described a woman whose lover had just come to her and confessed cheating, overcome with guilt over it, and in the story the woman calmly responded, "I see you are in pain, how can I help."

And that's when it hit me. Hard. I felt like I was being pulled around by my hair in my marriage and I didn't like it. It felt like I was always off balance. Like everything was always so big. Like I was quite literally being emotionally "dragged around by my hair."

And I wanted what that woman had in the story.  Bad.

I wanted that calm, centered poise, that objectivity, that "okay-ness" in herself that allowed her to be present for others in her life no matter what was going on - that THRONE. That peace! I wanted it with my whole body, my whole being.

In that moment, I was so moved by all of this that I suddenly heard myself announce to an empty house, "I want to be like that," like the voice didn't even come from me.

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It felt like time stood still. 

It felt like I was the only person in the Universe in that moment.

The words seemed to reverberate across time and space - or like time and space had collapsed into that one present moment and the words were all there were.

I knew something big had happened, but it didn't know what it all meant.

There was nothing to do but continue with my day and with my life. There was no big epiphany or immediate change, but something had been set in motion - I knew it in my bones.

Deeper Implications

I didn't realize it at the time - I was still living in so much denial - but that feeling I had about being "dragged around by my hair," and constantly off balance - well, that was because I was in an abusive marriage.

In fact, I was sustaining every kind of (covert) abuse expect direct physical violence - the mental, emotional, and even sexual abuse was there, just not overtly. It was more like a constant just-beneath-the-surface erosion of my value and power.

At that point, I couldn't admit that to myself. I know now it was because I couldn't come to terms with what that would mean about me, so it wasn't even an option I would allow in to consider.

That June day was the day that there was just enough of a crack of an opening in my resistance for my higher self to jump in and rescue me, set me on a different path.

That story, and that feeling I felt when I read it, and me speaking those 6 little words - that was the beginning of an entirely new me and an entirely new life, because, "to be like that," everything was going to have to change - there was a long distance between where I was then and "being like that."

And change it did - over the course of the next ten or so years, all right on time with Pluto transiting my 7th house of marriage and opposing my first house Venus. A once in a lifetime death and rebirth transit that not even everyone experiences in a lifetime, as Pluto takes 280 years to move all the way around the zodiac, or a natal chart.

Living the Myth: A Real Life, Modern Day Heroine's Journey

Those six little words on that June afternoon set me on an epic journey - the stuff of myth.

Every bit of it truly paralleled the great Sumerian myth of Inanna's Descent (the myth that goes along with Venus retrograde - on this summer July 22nd to September 3rd, 2023).

When you hear me talking about Creatrix Coaching and reclaiming your throne through emotional + energetic mastery and radical self-value so you can take your rightful place as sovereign ruler of your realm and create the love and life you desire, THIS is what I'm referring to.

The throne I am talking about is your birthright - your throne of self-value. This is what I call the "Venus work," and I believe it's the most important work we can do. I believe we are starving for it.

​Yes, Venus is love and relationships, but Venus also rules resources, money, pleasure, abundance, attraction, and flow in our lives. We think of Venus simply as "love and money," but Venus rules values, and most importantly self-value, which is the foundation for everything else Venus - the abundance, the ease, the pleasure, the love, the relationships, the resources, the money. The quality of your value of yourself as a resource in your life determines the quality (and quantity) of what you attract and experience.

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The Sumerian Myth of Inanna's Descent (Venus Retrograde)

First there's the awakening - there's the realization that there is something beyond this, another way to be, another way to experience life...and you want it.

Then there's the journey to the underworld to meet the shadow, the death to the old consciousness and rebirth to new consciousness, where she is reborn "whole unto herself," after integrating the shadow with the new consciousness.

Then comes the ascension, which can be a tricky part of the journey because this new consciousness and wholeness thing is still very new and she's still struggling with some of the old demons and patterns.

In the end, the heroine, the Great Queen of Heaven and Earth, Inanna (the planet Venus to the ancient Sumerians), reclaims her throne whole unto herself, fully aware of her shadow and with it integrated, ruler of both the world above and below, of both light and shadow, in full wisdom and compassion.

It's an inside job.

​No one can do it for you, and you cannot fake it. You have to believe you are worthy down to your core, without a shadow of a doubt, and you have to live that every single day.

I've lived the journey. I know it's possible. I know how important it is. It wasn't just the non-existent self-worth, I also had C-PTSD. I spent several years in freeze response after exhausting both fight and flight.

It's about your energy, but many times our fears, limiting beliefs, and traumas are what are screaming the loudest and sending out the biggest vibration, even if we aren't conscious of them.

I'm not just a coach, or just an astrologer, or just a survivor/thriver, I'm also professionally trained in hypnotherapy. I know about how the subconscious mind and beliefs work, and how to work with them to get positive results.

Are you ready to start the journey to reclaiming your throne?

Make a decision and the Universe conspires....
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~Kasey

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